It is FINALLY the weekend and a weekend where I have nothing to do and for the first time in what seems like ages I can relax and do pretty much NOTHING!!!!!!! I am sooooooo tired and just want to sleep. Intend on having my dinner tonight, then heading straight upstairs with some drinks, some chocolate and a magazine....TV will be on (got Sky in the bedroom) and then whatever time I fall asleep I fall asleep! (will make sure the chocolate isn't left on the bed though!) Have a few things to do but nothing major and nothing at a specific time - so can just go with the flow.

I feel knackered but I feel fab!!! Had such a wicked weekend last weekend again. Was so much fun. Saw loads of family members (both sides) and everyone was smiling and laughing and happy. Drank (which is unusual for me) danced, laughed, danced some more, laughed some more.......it was just brilliant!!! Don't think I was the only one who enjoyed myself either, everyone seemed to be having fun and I think the photos show that. What's the saying? - the camera never lies! This year seems to just be a barrel of fun and laughter for me (yes, I know, I know, we're only 16 days in!!)

And because I feel like I am having such a fab time I feel so so happy. Happier than I have in a very, very, very long time. One of my old work colleagues sent me a message through Facebook earlier in the week. She said she had been looking through my photos and was pleased to see me looking so relaxed and happy! That made me even happier as it must show I am happy - I am not just feeling happy (or pretending as has been suggested) I AM happy!!!! (does that make sense??!!) She also said it was a shame I couldn't have been that happy when I worked where I did with her. She is right - it is a shame. Wrong time in my life I think when I was there. It was at the height of all the shit and rough times - but won't dwell on that too much as I promised myself that I shut and firmly bolted the door on all the stresses and strains of the past few years and I am not going to let it or the people ever drag me down again. Another old school friend told me in a message this week that it is very clear from photos how happy and how much in love me and my fiance are. :D And WE ARE!!!!! Its not false, it's not bravado or whatever the word is - I feel like my life is f**king fantastic!!!!!!!!!!!!! And those who try to tell me otherwise - well they must just have problems in their own life if they have to over analyse mine.

I still haven't even been on the forum which I have amazed myself with. Was very tempted the other day when one of my Facebook friends who is a forum member referred to it in their status and I was tempted to go find out what they meant!!! But I didn't. I was strong.....I learned how to get along.....(That was an awful link wasn't it?!)

Oh and I have a school reunion coming up this year (possibly - date TBC), I am trying to get a lunch organised with the girls I used to work with in the summer, and last night I was invited out into Leeds with one of them next month which I am so excited for!!! January is all booked up, so is February, half of March, some of April, most of May, all of June and half of July!!!!!!! This year really is going to be the best I have had........possibly ever!!!!!!!!!!! (well 1999 will always be up there!)