Been quite angry & upset these past 2 days but thanks to the words of someone I am feeling a lot better and realise, as she told me, that there are terribly narrow minded people around and things are never cut and dried like some people seem to think they are.

We all like to think that in certain situations we would act a certain way - but the truth is we cannot honestly say that we would definitely definitely do something.....you can't say you would run into a burning building to rescue someone, you can't say you would fight back if being attacked, you can't say you'd step in if you saw a crime being committed - you can't say that if worst came to worst and your partner hurt you badly that you wouldnt use your child to hurt them.....of course we'd like to all think we'd do the "right" thing - but what we should do and what we actually do are two very different things.

But what is the "right" thing? The "right" thing is not for onlookers to decide, the right thing to do is what you believe is the best for yourself and everyone involved no matter how wrong, or odd others think it is. Its nothing to do with people on the sidelines who offer their opinion. Everyone is entitled to make their own decisions and it hasn't got anything to do with people who have never experienced it, only hear what they want to hear and make very judgemental criticisms. You can't please everyone all of the time, and you will never receive 100% agreement with your decisions in life whatever they may be......but to judge and make snide comments on situations, or "worry" about things that you know nothing about to me is just wrong.

Maybe one day explanations will be asked for, the truth will be told and who knows where it will go from there....maybe that day will never come - but I know that we can always live with the fact that he did what he believed was right....and that to us is all that matters.