Again?????

So a few weeks back it happened again......this time a letter from a Tracing agency........unbelieveable....
All it was was a piece of paper from a memo pad asking to call....do they think we are stupid and won't check out who they are and what they might want???? We didn't phone and we won't be phoning. The memos will just be filed along with everything else we have received......

I was angry but I don't want to be angry when thinks like this happen AGAIN. I was angry cos I just think "oh my god - are you that sad that you still need to be contacting us?"
I wonder what's happened in ITs life that they have had to stir something up again.....
What we don't understand is what do they want us to do???? Retaliate?? Cause trouble??? Cos that's the thing - not once have we ever responded to anything. Only way we responded was by reporting everything to the police....but since then (due to the fact IT can't contact us directly) then they have had to find other ways to get to us.....
I personally think it boils down to the fact that they don't know where we live....I bet if they did know they'd be over asap checking out where we lived, what kind of house it is - looking through the windows (all stuff done where we were before)

But my darling husband-to-be was worried - worried at what next.......he works funny hours and now its getting dark he will be walking into a pitch black car park to leave work....He said he is worried about whether the next step is someone following us - Sounds extreme doesn't it???? But what if????

x

Happy Birthday

Happy 3rd Birthday little one!!

Wonder what you're up to today.....lots of presents, a birthday cake with candles to blow out, family and friends sharing in your joy, lots of smiles and laughter - maybe even a party.....

Whatever you are doing I hope you are having an amazing birthday.

We have a card for you. Sealed with a kiss and stored with all your other cards. Hope maybe one day you might get to see them....

I wish things were different. I am sure everyone involved wishes things were different, that some things weren't said, that some things weren't done, that some things should have been done.....
But we can't change the past. No point wasting time worrying about things you can't change I suppose....if only it was that easy

I hope one day you can come to even partly understand why what happened happened, why things are like they are now, why we can't send the cards in the post.....

Why would we ever pretend you don't exist?? Photos of you (even though they are old) lookdown on us every single day - from several different walls in our home. I say good morning and good night to you every day. Tell you I love you. Cos I do......

Everyone who knows us knows about you. Why would we hide you??

You may not be IN our lives physically, but you are in our lives mentally, emotionally....in our thoughts, in our hearts every single second of every single day.