So the year is nearly over - I have no idea where time has gone. Its gone so fast and I haven't done half the things I wanted to do......
There hasn't been too much "Hassle" Activity this year so I am thinking perhaps we could go through 2009 without any interference from "The Hassle" at all!!! Wont hold my breath on it though - expect my internet use to be always followed and hacked into when the chances occur.....

Even though I say it every year I am determined on a new level as to how much will change in my life next year. Things throughout the year are already planned which are some of the biggest events in my life so that's a good start!!! Its just lots of smaller things that need to change.

I am going to be on-line alot less than I do now. On weekdays I log in during my lunch break at work (sometimes naughtily during working hours too!) - then probably 80% of the time I will log on for an hour or more in an evening. If my man is working night shifts I can have the computer on for 4-5hours a night - plus the hour at work!! I am ashamed of myself. So I have decided to log in less and also there are certain websites I will no longer be using as they seem to be a hassle in my life which I do not need in 2009 or ever again.

Its a shame in one particular case that I have had to make the decision to no longer log-in. The website has been a lifeline to me, providing me with support when I am down, helping make some wonderful friendships, providing me with laughs,debates and unlimited knowledge - but due to being wrongly judged, abused and criticised on occasions for what I have written I just don't see how I can go on. If I can't be honest and open then there is no point in being a part of it is there???
I hope I can still keep up with things through the wonderful friends I have made and they have assured me to let me know when the parties are held so I can join in!!!!!!

Staying offline will help me with my paranoia and issues I have with "The Hassle" and it will also give me time to do other things such as keep a clean and tidy house..... You think I am joking?!!!! When I get home I look at the ironing pile and I think to myself....."hmmm...ironing or log-in?.ironing or log-in?.ironing or log-in?" I HATE IRONING!!!!!!! In fact I hate most housework - washing up, cleaning the bathroom, hoovering......most duties I hate! But I do do them.....I just might put them off for a while first!!!!! But I am determined to set a rota and stick to it then it will just be small tasks not mammoth tasks as they seem to turn into! And hopefully owning a dishwasher after the wedding will help us loads.......help us to become even lazier that is!!!

By keeping on top of the housework though it will give me free time at the weekends to do what I / we want to do. See friends, go shopping, take long walks with the dog......loads of things which I aim to do more of next year anyway. For the past few years I have neglected myself big time. I keep trying to change but this time I actually feel mentally ready to sort myself out - I am going to sort it out.....what IT is though is a hell of alot!!!!!

2009 for me is the start of my future. In the coming year a hell of a lot is going to change and a lot that happens will pave the way for the rest of my life. Sounds more dramatic than it is!! But 2009 is going to be one of the most important years of both mine and my wonderful fiance's life and I am so looking forward to the new year starting and to putting this year and many others behind us and shutting the door on all the sh*t in them firmly and locking it forever.......